I have had this account for almost 3 years and i have been finding hard to understand why kids suffer, why they have to die, why people don't care enough to do something for them and fight for a change. Sometimes i even doubt of God's goodness, but im learning to accept that, I can't understand why this kind of things happen, why cancer exist or why it affects little kids that have a whole life ahead, but i also learned something. God is good. Despite the pain, despite the heartbreak, God is good. Everything happens for a reason, we all come here with a purpose and for me, these kids had the biggest mission ever. They create change. They came into this world to impact the lives of many, they inspired people to fight for them, to raise awareness, they unlock love & compassion in others and thats the biggest miracle. Some months ago i got to read a beautiful post from a Cancer mom who lost her 6 year old son from brain cancer and here you have her words: "God is good. I SAID IT. I said it over and over again. I said it in our victories. I said it in our worst moments. God is STILL good despite. God is still as good, as he was on the day Sammy was born. And he was just as good on the day he welcomed Sammy into heaven. Despite my arms now being empty, God is still good. Because of God I still have HOPE. And that makes God good" (Adaptation from Sammy's mom IG: @adventures_of_super_sammy )
This 'work' makes my heart full of love but its also heartbreking, visiting kids and then learn that they passed away, make contact with families worldwide and not being able to say goodbye. You create a bond, even from far away, you love them, you support them and its devastating to wake up to the news that another little kid passed away, attending to funerals and knowing that it will be so long until you get to see them again. Its heartbreaking and its hard but it's worth it. I promise you. This kids make my life better, they give me many reasons to fight.
I also found a beautiful story the other day, it gave me a different perspective and right now, its the easiest way for me to understand suffering and death. I want to share it with you.
THE BRAVE LITTLE SOUL by John Alessi
Not too long ago in Heaven there was a little soul who took wonder in observing the world. He especially enjoyed the love he saw there and often expressed this joy with God. One day however the little soul was sad, for on this day he saw suffering in the world. He approached God and sadly asked, "Why do bad things happen; why is there suffering in the world?" God paused for a moment and replied, "Little soul, do not be sad, for the suffering you see, unlocks the love in people's hearts." The little soul was confused. "What do you mean," he asked. God replied, "Have you not noticed the goodness and love that is the offspring of that suffering? Look at how people come together, drop their differences and show their love and compassion for those who suffer. All their other motivations disappear and they become motivated by love alone." The little soul began to understand and listened attentively as God continued, "The suffering soul unlocks the love in people's hearts much like the sun and the rain unlock the flower within the seed. I created everyone with endless love in their heart, but unfortunately most people keep it locked up and hardly share it with anyone. They are afraid to let their love shine freely, because they are afraid of being hurt. But a suffering soul unlocks that love. I tell you this - it is the greatest miracle of all. Many souls have bravely chosen to go into the world and suffer - to unlock this love - to create this miracle for the good of all humanity." Just then the little soul got a wonderful idea and could hardly contain himself. With his wings fluttering, bouncing up and down, the little soul excitedly replied. "I am brave; let me go! I would like to go into the world and suffer so that I can unlock the goodness and love in people's hearts! I want to create that miracle!" God smiled and said, "You are a brave soul I know, and thus I will grant your request. But even though you are very brave you will not be able to do this alone. I have known since the beginning of time that you would ask for this and so I have carefully selected many souls to care for you on your journey. Those souls will help you create your miracle; however they will also share in your suffering. Two of these souls are most special and will care for you, help you and suffer along with you, far beyond the others. They have already chosen a name for you". God and the brave soul shared a smile, and then embraced. In parting, God said, "Do not forget little soul that I will be with you always. Although you have agreed to bear the pain, you will do so through my strength. And if the time should come when you feel that you have suffered enough, just say the word, think the thought, and you will be healed." Thus at that moment the brave little soul was born into the world, and through his suffering and God's strength, he unlocked the goodness and love in people's hearts. For so many people dropped their differences and came together to show their love. Priorities became properly aligned. People gave from their hearts. Those that were always too busy found time. Many began new spiritual journeys, some regained lost faith - many came back to God. Parents hugged their children tighter. Friends and family grew closer. Old friends got together and new friendships were made. Distant family reunited, and every family spent more time together. Everyone prayed. Peace and love reigned. Lives changed forever. It was good. The world was a better place. The miracle had happened. God was pleased.